The tonsil journey

I might as well blog about it before lupa, kan? On that Thursday morning, we left BJ around 7.30am, arrived in Sunway around 8.00am. Took our time, teman B breakfast, I didn't eat anything as I need to fast before the operation. I didn't feel anything masa ni, just a normal day. Rasa jealous tengok B minum teh tarik ada lah. Hehe. Around 8.45am, arrived at the hospital and we proceed to the Admission counter. We had to wait for about 15 minutes as the ward is full and they are in the midst of opening up another ward.

Got my GL and documentation settled, pastu tag my name on my wrist and off to the ward. The nurse told me I need to be ready by 12pm, to wear the operation gown. So, I sat on my bed, with B accompanying me, kejap tengok TV, kejap online. Around 10am, pegi ambik urine test, blood test, ECG test. At 11am camtu, the surgeon came to check on me followed by the anesthetic doctor. She asked me whether I have anything to ask. So, saja nak buat lawak nak lawan gemuruh aku, aku saja la tanya 'Pernah tak ada org tak bangun2 dari bius?' and she said 'Oh, kalau badan besar macam awak, risiko besar sket la'.

Fuh, masa tu baru aku start rasa berdebar. By 12.30pm, nurse suruh aku tukar gown. I thought lepas tukar gown tu bleh la duduk dgn B kejap. Nak minta maaf, nak kiss bagai kan. Ye lah, aku kan drama. Tapi tak sempat dowh. Aku kuar dari bilik air jek, nurse dah tunggu kat bilik, aku panjat naik katil, baring, sempat pegang tangan B kejap and diaorg usung aku ke lift. Masa ni aku dah macam diam je. Redha je. Bila keluar lift, dan masuk satu area kat luar OT room, dah semerbak bau ubat dan hospital. Time ni mmg hati aku berdegup kencang. Dup dap dup dap. The anesthetic doctor came and ckp nak masukkan ubat/tempat utk drip later. Tepuk2 tangan tak jumpa urat, what else is new la kan. She told me gently la that she will try to poke the needle as she could not find my vein.

Satu, dua, tiga, empat...yes empat tempat and unsuccessful. She refused to do it on my right hand sebab later nanti susah utk aku. Aku dah takde perasaan dah time ni, cucukla mana pun. So last2 she decided that she will poke on my left wrist, kat urat besar but it will hurt a bit. Mak aih lepas dia poke kat wrist tu, air mata aku pun keluar. Sakit gila. But aku rasa air mata tu keluar lebih kepada sbb I realized the time is near and I don't have B by my side and I felt fragile. Boohoo. I just needed the needle poking to trigger my tears, tu je kut. Haha.

So, after what seems like forever, it was my turn to be pushed into the OT room. Diaorg suruh aku bangun sendiri dari katil ke OT bed. Aku tengok jam dlm OT tu 1.15pm. Well, the OT room doesn't look as scary as I imagined it to be. Probably because OT room biasa je, bukan utk major surgery. Kepala aku dia suruh letak betul2 dekat this besi2 supaya kepala aku betul2 mendongak. Then they put this gas mask on my face. Well, aku dok tengok kat TV selalunya diaorg suruh kira 1-10 la, kira terbalik la..tapi tak suruh plak aku buat apa2. So, aku dok pikir, belum lagi kut. But I am getting ready for the instruction la. But the more I inhale (breath), the sleepy I became and the next thing I knew, aku dah tak ingat apa2. And nurse tengah tepuk2 lengan aku 'Puan Amilia dah sedar ke? Nanti kejap lagi kita akan tolak ke bilik'. And I felt asleep again.

I think I kept on calling 'B..B' but my throat felt so dry. I didn't remember the moment I was pushed from outside the OT room to my ward. I didn't remember the lift ride. Tau2 je dah ada dlm bilik. B looked relieved and I kept asking him to go and grab lunch as it was already 2pm. Sebelum aku pegi operate tu aku dah bagitau dia to have lunch once aku masuk OT room sbb aku tak nak dia berlapar and I want him to be by my side once I'm done. Tapi dia pun tak senang duduk kut. My mom told me when she called him, suara dia slow je ckp yg aku belum keluar dari OT room. Mama aku pun pandai berlakon depan aku. Masa dia call pagi tu suara mak aku ceria je suruh aku bersabar banyak2..tapi rupanya adik aku citer mama aku dah nangis puas2 dah sebelum call aku. Haha tu la anak beranak drama dan kuat nangis :P. Bila Zul call Mama kata aku dah keluar dari OT, she immediately came with Ayah walaupun aku kata it's better that she comes and visit at night as I would have already been fully awake, tapi dia nak jugak dtg masa aku dok drowsy tuh. She said she can't stay put at home already as she was so worried. Haih, kalau aku bersalin tah camna la mak aku tu :).

It was so painful to swallow even a plain water. Petang tu diaorg bagi roti and ice cream. I couldn't swallow the bread and only ate half the ice cream. En Zul la tukang perabis. Dinner dia bagi porridge and jelly. By then, dah bleh la telan sambil pejam mata. My sis came late evening after work, followed by Zetty, siap bawa bunga (thanks bebeh, you're the best!). Linda came a bit later with Nuren dgn air gamat dan kad. So sweet, seronok borak2 dgn Nuren walaupun suara aku slow je. Air gamat tu aku minum tau Linda, walaupun payahh. Aduhaii :)
B could not stay for the night as it was two-bedded room. But I was already feeling so sleepy to even feel sad or what la. Said my goodbye, kiss-kiss and off to sleep. Tapi setiap 2 jam terjaga sbb the nurses nak check my temperature la, nak suruh makan ubat la. Normally, kalau dah remove tonsil kita akan demam but alhamdulillah takde. Even after op, I expected to feel blood in my throat or kahak2 berdarah tapi takde plak, so am thankful for that. No scar on my neck sbb dia scoop/laser dari inside my mouth je. Funny thing is, as I had drip and the machine at my wrist, bila aku tertidur dan tangan bergerak, machine tu akan berbunyi sbb air tak dpt masuk and the nurse would have to come and betulkan position tangan aku and suruh aku tido dgn tgn menegak. As if la it's easy to be done kan. Rasanya more than 2 times kut the machine went off in the middle of the night and the nurse had to come and off it hihi.

Nak pegi tandas pun leceh sbb I have to unplug and bring the drip with me into the toilet. Lepas op tu, I was still in my OT gown till petang and mula rasa rimas. So, the nurse unplug, tutup tube tu and aku pun pegi la mandi. Takde experience kan, by the time aku abis mandi and pakai baju, blood was dripping sbb aku byk gerakkan wrist maka kena la nurse tu tukar dressing. Time tu la adik aku sampai and she took this picture. Ergh, messy.
So, I was discharged on Friday at 11am, took back a handful of medicine and head back to BJ. Laila and hubby came over to visit on Saturday as well as my uncle and family the same night and brought honey to be consumed. My nephews and sis in law came on Sunday. Rasa best jek sbb I've been missing them. Memacam pe'el diaorg malam tu. Owh, it's Azim's birthday today. Happy birthday Azim. Tak dpt la Angah nak call, Angah wish kat FB je. Ni pun pics Angah ambik kat FB.

It's been 4 days since the surgery and I'm getting restless dah. Ada la bukak2 email office and balas2 sket hehe. Oh, my boss also called today to ask me how I was doing. So far, mornings has been the hardest part of the day sbb bila bangun tidur tu rasa keringgg sgt tekak and this is the time that it hurts the most. Sabo jek la. And not forgetting the part that I can't eat oily, spicy food and kena on soft diet. Sehari dua tu bleh lagi la porridge, masuk hari ketiga mula la nak muak dah. Dah tak tau nak makan apa dah, roti, fishball, chicken porridge, mushroom..you name it. Ice cream mmg tengahari dan malam sure makan, jeli sejuk pun..it kinda sooth my throat la. Cuma kekadang tu ada rasa macam one layer of film at the back of my throat ni. Sabar, sabarrrr. I sooo want to eat spicy food right now uhuk.

I'll be on MC till 18th February. Lama betul. The next check up is this coming Friday. Doa2kan my speedy recovery yer. Bisa tarik rambut bila tak dpt swallow food dgn sempurna ni, let alone enjoying spicy food :).