Kalau saper baru kenal aku, mmg cakap aku sombong. Sebab? Aku tak banyak cakap (dgn org tak kenal la, kalau dah kenal...perghh non stop!)... I got this "Dulu, aku ingat ko ni sombong, takmo cakap dgn orang" like too many times already.
Aku susah nak start conversation especially dgn strangers.. ye, one of my (many) weaknesses. Tadi kat gym pun macam tu, org workout sebelah aku..aku buat dunno. Org bulu lebat busuk sebelah aku, aku lari gi tempat lain :D. At the locker area, I see this bunch of Malay girls, talking, laughing..I'm sure they got to know each other only after joining the gym. Adakah aku bother utk pergi kenal2? Tak... aku buat hal sendiri. Tapi kalau org tegur aku, aku senyum..aku cakap. Org tanya sepatah, aku jawab sepatah..aduih.
Masa tunggu lift nak ke car park, ada one macho chinese guy tegur "Baru habis workout?" Of course la, takkan baru nak pegi kut kalau dah nak turun ke car park kan? Tapi, I know he's being nice and polite and wanted to start a conversation..so I just nod and smile. Pastu masuk lif lain - dua2 lif terbuka, and patutnya kalau nak sambung conversation, masuk la lift yg sama dgn dia kan? Aku gi masuk lift yg lain. Pastu cakap kat diri sendiri "Buduh betul" . Mesti mamat tu rasa insulted. Not that he trying to ngurat kan? He is just being polite.. arghh..I hope I don't bumped into him again..isk. Hopeless la aku ni.
But there are times that I wished a conversation never strike - like alone in a taxi, or waiting for my turn in the hospital for the routine checkup. I would rather bury myself in a storybook, or any magazine/newspaper. Sebab aku takmo org tanya aku soalan2 yg aku malas nak jawab, macam "Sudah kahwin?" which will lead to "Berapa anak?" and after that "Sudah try bla bla bla-mind your-own-business la" questions. Aku tahu some are being polite and wanted to start a conversation but I'm so not good in this.
Muka aku yg garang ni pun satu hal la. People often mistaken my face emotion and thought that I was bored/sleepy/angry when in actual fact, I was just in my usual selamba-takde perasaan face. How? Tak tahu la nak describe. Those closest to me will know kut. And I am so lambat warm up in the morning. My roommates Rosnah and others will be able to testify this. Bila bangun pagi nak gi kelas, I would not utter a word. The only word that came out was when I woke some of them up, and then after that aku diam je, dari mandi, bersiap, drive to class...dah sampai campus, breakfast.. baru engine suara aku jalan - baru la sembang non-stop. Keh keh...sampai sekarang tau? Dah kahwin pun camtu. And now that hubby leaves at 7am, and aku masih mamai2 belum siap, he only kisses me goodbye before he goes. Dia pun dah paham enjin belum hidup :D.
Itu lah aku... memula je macam tu, when you finally get to know me, you will love me and could not resist me - ya Allah, perasannyaaaaaaaaaaa!
Oh, aku nampak Kevin Zahri kat gym tadik - like OMG body dia. Padanla jadik trainer. Seperti biasa, walaupun dia senyum, aku buat2 tak nampak je..konon tak heran la. Tapi sebenornya, aku conscious dgn bau badan ku yg berpeluh sakan. Cover konon! Hmmphh Amy...Amy..