The love of my life.. doing what he lovesAku takde mood nak cerita pasal weekend trip tu.. Trip tu ok, well ada ok dan tak ok nya. Mmg on the way balik, dah plan nak blog about it..gambar pun dah ambik banyak - bagi aku la.
Tapi bila balik - ada mende tak kena : mende2 yg aku tak suka dan buat aku hangin. Tapi aku cuba control, masak sambal sardine je sbb aku teringin sangat, dah minta tolong mama masak nasi so that bila aku sampai, terus masak je. Masa masak- air mata dah bergenang. Tapi tahan. Then ajak hubby makan, control lagi. Naik atas, masuk bilik - and I cry like nobody's business at his shoulders. Sampai basah baju dia. It took me 10 minutes to calm myself down lepas endless pujuk and hugs by hubby.
I don't think I can take this anymore - been trying to be the best daughter for the past 30 years and best wife for the past 4 years and surely, I can't please everyone and be the best. And I have myself to blame - not trying hard enough to look for job so that I can finally move out and stay in Klang with him. Not working hard enough at home to make sure everything is nicely arranged and taken care of (not with this amount of space and time-after-work I'm having now, definitely!). YA - I have myself to be blame - only ME. Aku yg tak pernah bersyukur dgn rezeki dan ujian Tuhan untuk aku.
And besok dah start kerja balik. I'm sure I'll be busy - dgn muka yg merah kena sunburned yg amat teruk - with mata yg bengkak after tonight. I'll update about the weekend trip after I'm done feeling useless about myself..
Betullah kata arwah Tok - jgn leka sangat bila dah happy. Still remember her words "Suka tu lawannya duka...bila dah suka sangat, mesti ada benda nak menangis". How true.
Right now, I'll go and crawl back to the snoring lover's arms.
p/s : No calls/emails/sms/comments related to this blog post will be entertained. I'll be ok in couple of days, biasalah aku....:)
7 comments:
no need to reply me, ok.
oh how i been in your shoes, way too many times. sebab itu abgzul cepat-cepat tarik kaklin pindah keluar rumah right after getting married. it helped a whole damn lot.
as they say... dekat bau taik; jauh bau wangi. and they have that saying not for nothing, Dear.
Much love and hugs. *
Jangan lupa nanti citer citer citer pasal the Kuantan trip k? Missed you!
tak entertain pun nak comment jugak.. sabo byk2 ek? ni sumer ujian to make you stronger.. bersyukur dgn apa kita ada ok? hugs!!
juz got back from our joran. ramai betul minat memancing. mostly guys. have to respect their passion la.. anglers ni sometimes i feel is a different breed altogether.
anyhow - hope u're feeling better already. *hugs*
Amy duhling,
Dont't cry.. nanti aku blanja lunch ok.. i love you.. :)
Tu kene trip to meet daim and meatball tu, baru ok..hehehehehe
hugsnkisses..
Sabo ler Amy...
Dah identify problem(s)
Dah identify solution(s)
Time for action(s)
*hugs*
-Normi-
Kak Lin - Thanks. Akan diupdate citer kuantan itu..
Konot - memang, masih bersisa sayu hati ni..tahan jek ni..
Inn - Yup, but this would be my first and the last kut. Tak minat la especially tengah panas..huhuhu but I don't mind him going,doing what he likes. Dia pun tak control what I like, why should i kan?
Anon - Gaya ber I love you to macam Sandra jek? :D
Aje - I think so la. Jom? Ko belanja ek? :P
Nomee - Problem and solution dah identify, tapi action tu kena slowly ;0
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