Nothing much lately, so I wanna blog about the movie I watched with my lil sis last night - Something Borrowed, which was based on the best-selling Emily Giffin's novel. I first knew about the movie while reading Kay's blog post on it. Memang masa tu rasa tak sabar nak tunggu movie keluar. Aku kan memang suka chick-flick/romantic comedy movies ni.
Since aku tak pernah baca lagi buku cerita tu, I didn't have any expectation la. So not too sure whether the story betul2 captured in the movie. Maybe same case macam Shopaholic kut. Sbb bila made into the movie, selalunya tak sama 'feeling' macam buku citer tu. It was refreshing to see Ginnifer Goodwin as the main role coz in other movies such as 'He's Just Not That into You' and some others, selalunya watak pembantu je. Lawa jugak dia ni sebenarnya, cute. And the new actor, Colin Egglesfield adalah comel, di mata aku. Hehhe. He's not new la actually, aku je yg tak pernah tengok dia berlakon.
There were some part of the movie yg buat aku, how to say..touching kut. Ada yg kena batang hidung sendiri. Ada yang buat aku senyum sorang2 sebab it was just too familiar. Been there, done that. Zul and me were best friends before (mula la nak bukak citer!). We were introduced when Mel and I went to hangout with mutual friends. Pastu chatting, pastu phone calls and next thing I know, we spent our off days (I was working on shift basis kat Ma.xis dulu) hanging out ramai2 main bowling. Sometimes, I picked them up, sometimes he picked me up with other friends. And lelama it was only the two of us. One night, when I was sending him to work lepas hangout beramai2 tu, he jokingly told me that he likes me. I just laugh it off coz I had a crush on someone else time tu.
The thing is, because he was my best friend, I kinda tell everything to him, termasuklah pasal that guy I had a crush on. Turns out that the guy I had a crush on tu dah ada awek, and only treat me like his own sister. I was crushed and guess who I turn to? Mestilah Zul, yg sanggup menadah telinga. He picked me up from work on the night that I cried my heart out dan dia telah menyeka air mataku (macam novel kan?), giving words of encouragement. Bila aku balik, then aku realized 'OMG, this guy care so much about me...ada depan mata aku tapi aku tak nampak'. But it was too late. Dia pun dah mula suka kat another mutual friend of ours. Jeng jeng jengg..
Dia minta aku 'recommend' kan dia kat this girl, sbb aku ni kan best friend dia. I obliged, and Zul tak tahu lepas aku call that girl, told her his good points, I cried. Tak tau kenapa, aku rasa macam I've lost him. There were occasions where we all hang out (me, him, the girl and other friends) but I always find excuses to go back early, sebab I could not take it. Masuk dalam kereta, drive je terus air mata keluar. Hindustan betul. There was one night, I had to bring another friend to meet this circle of friends, tapi I just drop her off and drive to another place and waited in the car to pick her up again sebab aku dah tak boleh tengok Zul with the other girl. Rasa pedih sangat hati. Cemburukah aku? Kalau cemburu tandanya sayang, kan? Aku suka kat dia ke? Macam2 benda bermain dalam kepala aku time tu.
Aku banyak jauhkan diri time tu. Tapi kekadang tu hangout jugak demi kawan2 yg lain. Bila duduk sebelah dia, lagi rasa terseksa sebab aku rindu sebenarnya. Other friends realized about this. And they were the ones who encouraged me to tell Zul how I felt. Gila koo. What if he doesn't have the same feelings anymore? At the same time, the girl dah no longer in the picture coz she was not interested, I think. And we became closer. Went for a trip to Genting with 7 other friends in the group, sort of bachelor party utk one of them yang akan kahwin the month after. Dari situ aku nampak he still cares about me. And I don't think I'm ready to lose him again.
So, berkat encouragement dari 'abang-abang' aku, I told him one night that I need to see him, alone. Ingat lagi time tu kat SS15, Subang Jaya. My palms were sweating when I was waiting for him. When he arrived, I told him everything, on why I kept my distance, why I was acting weird, sebab aku jealous. Dia tanya 'Kenapa nak jealous?'. Kumpul kekuatan dan cakap 'Sebab saya suka awak'. There, I've said it. Tebal gila rasa muka time tu. And to make it worst all he said was 'Nantilah saya pikir dulu'. Wahhh bukan main berlagakkkkkk!! :p. Lepas jumpa dia, aku terus call abang-abang aku tu and cursed for making me confessing my feelings and end up tu je yang Zul cakap. Hahah. Diaorg gelak2 je and suruh aku sabar.
And the rest is history. We were engaged a year later and got married the same year. All I'm saying is kalau suka, bagitau je la. Tapi ada jugak kes yang bagitau tapi end up kecewa. You know who you are. Pernah ada this one guy from work dulu who confessed that he likes me, lepas akad nikah dia. He told me he didn't have the courage to tell me before when all along, I thought he was not interested. Complicated sebenarnya kan bila hal2 yg melibatkan perasaan dan cinta ni. Aku percaya yang there will always be someone untuk kita. Cepat atau lambat je. Don't give up on hope and love just yet, ladies. Who knows, he could just be right in front of you all along?
*picture taken here*