May you rest in peace, Aina Shireen

Pada hari Tahun Baru ni, aku dikejutkan dgn bunyi handphone aku at 8.30am. Mata masih pejam and terus terbukak bila aku dengar ayat seterusnya "Amy, Aina dah meninggal 4am tadi, asthma attack"..

It took me a good 5 minutes to compose myself. Aku jadi blur, tak tahu nak bagitau sapa. Macam tak bleh nak recall. It was a shock to me. The last conversation I had with her was in September, thru FB. She was requesting my help to get contacts in Maxis from my previous colleague. Then she asked when we can meet as it has been ages since we last met. Bila aku baca balik message kat FB tu, I didn't answer her question..I answered her other questions instead.

I took for granted that she will always be there in FB for me to contact. Sekelip mata dah takde. Bila tengok2 balik gambar lama, she was always the girl with a smile. Kaki gelak. We became close coz of mutual friends. Kat PPP pun, bilik dia atas bilik aku. Lepas start keje, selalu gak hangout kat Bangsar, Hartamas sbb we live nearby. And I met Hafiz, her then bf. Went to her wedding, a grand one. We still meet lepas kahwin tapi lama2 lost contact, masing2 busy dgn life masing2 and thanks to FB, we reconnect but that's it.

From FB, dapat tahu la yg exactly a year ago, dia kena severe asthma attack gak and she was 8 months pregnant. Had no choice and she had to deliver her baby..Alhamdulillah both survived time tu but her baby mmg kena monitor and after 3 months rasanya, baru baby dpt keluar dari hospital but baby has to be constantly on 02. Pakai tube kat hidung. Kesian baby comel tu. And just 2 weeks ago, Aina updated pictures of her baby yg dah turn 1 year old.

First picture, Arwah yg berdiri kiri sekali baju kurung kuning, second picture pakai topi duduk sebelah aku and 3rd picture t-shirt putih dgn thumbs up. Kenangan gi mandi air terjun masa last paper of our final year in UiTM.
Masa celebrate birthday dia kat Hartamas, second from left.

Managed to call Nona and Ros tadi and Ros pun ajak Sandra pegi ziarah. Kebetulan masa dok sesat mencari tanah perkuburan kota damansara tu dgn Nona, stumbled upon Ros' car and dia ikut belakang. Masa sampai kubur, arwah Aina dah dimasukkan dlm liang lahad, tak sempat aku nak tengok sebab dah nak start talkin dah. Her other friends, her CBN friends pun ramai tadi. Sebelum balik sempat jumpa Shida and Fiza. Shida was her best friend. Menangis dia tadi. Saw Aina's first daughter, duduk kat riba hubby Aina tepi kubur. Saw from her friend's FB that they could hear the daughter tanya "Mana Mama?"..adui, broke my heart when I read that :((.

I'm sorry Aina, for not contacting you as much as I should. May you rest in peace. Al-fatihah. Takziah to Hafiz and family. Al-fatihah juga pada kawan PPP lain yg dah meninggalkan kita, Arwah Jeff dan arwah Bob. Moga kalian ditempatkan di kalangan orang-orang yang beriman. Amin.

*pictures courtesy from Shida's FB.