I think I'm too lembik..

A very old friend called today, dah 5 tahun lebih lost contact. He managed to find my number from another old friend. He wanna meet, ada cerita katanya. I said ok (after asking B punya permission).

Suspense gak sbb suara dia macam problem je. Dulu, when he said "We need to talk" , he was the only person in my circle of friends time tu yg berani to tell me that the guy I am seeing at that moment is actually married. He was the one yg hampir nak belasah my ex sbb geram tengok the way that moron treated me. Yes, he is protective and buat aku ni macam adik dia je.

But this time, aku macam dah agak. Either he has problem with his marriage or he got money problem. So, we met and I am glad to know his marriage is ok - but ...he got money problem. Bukan ratus-ratus..but ribu-ribu. And there's A*lo*g involved. Haiyaaa..what makes he think that I have lots of money and could help him? Dia betul2 buat aku rasa guilty - coz he's a nice person tapi aku mmg tak dapat nak tolong. Aku ni nak kata hidup susah, tak le. Boleh la nak hidup laki bini..bayar2 keta, joli2 10% , simpan sket 10% and pastu tunggu next salary and the same cycle every month.

Aku ni, mudah kesian kat org. I know he's telling the truth tapi aku tak bleh tolong la. Times like this, kadang2 kena tegas and think about our self too - walaupun mungkin org kata selfish. I was about this (sambil rapatkan ibu jari dan jari telunjuk :P) close to layan his solution of me applying a personal loan or sign up for a credit card as he will be able to pay back by July. Tapi aku tak berani nak take the risk la. Hutang yg sedia ada pun tengah bayar slowly, inikan plak nak tambah hutang baru. Kalau ada temptation nak buat hutang baru, aku selalu pikir - kang kut kalau aku or hubby mati dulu, sian mama ngan ayah nak tanggung hutang kitaorg.

It's not easy to say no to someone very dear to you but I guess I had to do it. I hope he understands. I could not imagine being in his shoes right now.

As of now, me and hubby can't wait for August where insyallah, that month will be his last month paying for his car installment - yeah, 7 fu*king years. And hopefully by that time, aku pun dah settle card credit. Skettttt je lagi. Bukan la banyak mana beza pun but at least, duit yg dok bayar ke kereta tu (imagine 84 months of car installment money!) bleh la digunakan untuk mende2 lain pulok.

I am so not lucky when it comes to buying a house. The house was supposed to be completed in 2005, tapi no sound of it and developer tu pun dah bungkus. Last year, developer baru kata they will complete in Jan 2008 and reimburse whatever money/fine incurred since 2005. Yesterday, latest news is the house will only be completed in another 1 1/2 years time and no reimbursement will be given. Shaiitt! Imagine org yg duduk menyewa since 2005 sbb rumah sediri tak siap? Baper banyak diaorg dah rugi?

Yg jadik victim, pembeli le. Bank of course mengaut keuntungan je kan? Bukan peduli rumah siap ke tak siap ke, interest tetap jalan...understood la, bank pun kuar duit gak untuk rumah tu. But I really think govt and banks kena la consider pembeli gak. All we want is our own house and bila dah kena tiaw dgn developer camni, like we don't have anywhere else to go. Bank buat bo-layan bila kita merayu.., kalau ada banyak duit, bleh la upah lawyer bagai, kan? Report kat press? Rumah yg terbengkalai 15 tahun pun takde solution, ni kan plak macam rumah aku yg baru terbengkalai 4 tahun, tak pandang punya. Irony part is hubby pun having same problem with his house purchased 6 years ago - very bad karma on house shopping eh?

Money can't buy happiness, very true no matter how cliche that is. But having a lot of money does improve your life.. :D