My PTD experience

Balik keje petang tadi, Ayah sengih jek lepas Tiyah tunjuk surat increment and naik pangkat. Takde la naik pangkat sgt pun, dari assistant jadik Exec..alhamdulillah. Aku yg tak naik2 pangkat, naik grade jek..buhsan. Anyways, rupanya Ayah sengih2 sbb gaji pegawai kerajaan naik. And Ayah being a retiree, pun naik gak..banyak lak tuh! Rezeki Ayah, alhamdulillah.

I jokingly tell Ayah " La, gaji adik naik, 'gaji' ayah pun naik...". And mind you, Ayah's monthly pension is more than what I earned every month now, even after the latest increment..uh, sungguh memalukan diri saya :D. Moments like this la yg buat aku rasa cam nak keje dgn gomen, pikir masa depan. Syiok woo bila dah pencen, rehat, goyang kaki.. duit maintainnnn masuk. Bestnya! But after being rejected after the PTD training (I think in 2002), aku dah rasa tawar hati/segan nak apply gomen dah.

Yes, I went for the PTD exam in 2001 ke 2002 tah, berjaya. Then dapat panggilan pegi PTD training for a week (siap ambik cuti seminggu) - aku dapat kat INTAN Kedah, met Taty (Ted) there... I think I screw up big time during this training especially masa public speaking, hancus! Dah le mostly bebudak fresh grad, muda2 belia - jenis pemidato-pemidato, public speaking gila lancar. Aku dah pikir dah masa tu "Mati lah aku nak compete dgn bebudak cerdas nih". Habis training kat Kedah (best, I still contact some of them), ingat ke tak berjaya. Berjaya plak kena panggil utk interview, the final interview. Ayah had high hopes for me then. Ayah kata kalau make it through this round, memang dapat la.

Come interview day, memang tak keruan aku rasa. Nervous gila. Masuk bilik interview, one fierce looking lady and one very nice gentleman. Lelaki tu tanya soalan simple2 yg aku bleh jawab, but the last question was asked by the lady "Please explain the process to implement a new law in the Cabinet" ..pergh siap ingat soalan, soalan yg menghancurkan impianku :P. So aku explain dgn berpeluhnya dan nak sampai part nak cakap new law tu kena go through Agung gak before can be approved, aku gi merepek sebut pemerintah tah apa tah...shit! That time, aku mmg dah tahu dah, confirm GAGAL.

Ayah did asked me to try applying again coz the probability to get it after a second try memang cerah. But me being me, malu la...segan la. Dengan age factor semua, hmmpph lupakan. And last year, out of the blue tetiba Ayah kata "Takpelah dik, tak keje kerajaan pun. Mungkin Adik tak dapat gaji yg macam Adik dapat sekarang. Tapi dah keje swasta ni, kenalah menyimpan untuk masa depan, sebab takde duit pencen" Adus, kena sebijik! :P

Tah macam mana bleh teringat pasal PTD ni..lepas cakap dgn Ayah about the pension increment tadi kut. I was reminded by how much I wanted to be like Ayah, having completed his Masters in US.. so, aku pun apply la ADP kat PPP lepas SPM, kononnya nak gi US gak macam Ayah..which akhirnya di 'deny' kan oleh penajaku kerana economic recession in 1997. Sedih gila!. Nak jadik gomen PTD officer yg garang macam Ayah, tapi gagal plak PTD..

But somehow, as Mama said... aku ni photocopy of Ayah, I have his eyes, hair and lips. I remembered once when Tiyah and me followed Ayah to the office on a casual Saturday and while Ayah busy doing his work, I would dragged Tiyah and walk around the office, and some of his staff will greet me and say " Ni anak Encik Hadi ke?" When I nod, they will say "Sebijik macam muka Ayah dia" and I remembered feeling so proud coz people in the office respect Ayah and I wanted to be like him :D. And banyak habit & perangai2 aku macam Ayah, which sometimes drive Mama and hubby crazy...eheheh. Tiyah pun suka give me remarks kalau aku dah start cranky or bossy/planning kat rumah, she will say "Hmmm, ikut perangai sapa tah. Pok (bapa) dia la ni"

Panjang sungguh entry merapu ini :P. Gosh, this is a busy week for us in the office. Pagi petang jaga exam..on top of that, I have a new staff to train and monitor...and next week plak new intake. Busy, busy, busy ...as always.

It's now left with the two of them je kan? Tak kisah la saper menang pun..my favorites semua dah terkeluar..hmphhh. Kena letak gak gambar ni, kalau tak aku rasa tak complete post aku.. ahahha.



Picture taken from here