I bloody hate this..

I hate it when this 'pandai' mouth of mine said to him a couple of weeks back "Takpelah kalau ada hari yg B kena keje sampai malam, takyah la penat2 drive balik jauh2. Nanti pagi2 nak drive gi keje lagi"

When it really happened tonight, I bite my own tongue. Padan muka and I have the nerve to be emotional and make him worried, to the extent that he is willing to drive back just so I feel better tonight. But I assured him I'll be ok and throw my phone away (on the bed, takut terhempas :P).

I hate his supplier, I hate his colleagues...

I hate it when he has no new clothes to wear to work tomorrow simply because it was not planned and he need to spend the night there. I must remember to pack extra clothes should this occur again. At least I felt better that he can have shower and change into new clothes.

I hate having to live like this coz I didn't search for job seriously..and being able to live in Klang

I hate being lonely..I hate not having chit chat after we turn off the lights getting ready to sleep..

I hate waking up alone in the morning and not getting a goodbye kiss this morning..

I hate it when I'm this weak..just because I need him by my side.