Hopes and dreams

It felt like forever..akhirnya ada gak la nampak hasil. I've actually lost hope on it's completion tapi start to notice last year bila the new company took over to complete it. Makin lama makin banyak plak duit gaji aku ditolak monthly kan? Bila dapat statement monthly, I'd just tossed it aside tapi bila dah makin banyak baru aku sibuk tengok statement and said to myself "Eh? Roofing? Dah nak siap ka?"

Told my dad about it and last Thursday, we decided to drive to Bukit Jalil and see the progress. I bought it in 2003, was supposed to be completed in 2005 tapi yg siap hanya tapak rumah je. I gave up and last year, the new company called and request sort of approval to continue with the project. Aku ikut je la, malas dah. Kalau ikut perancangan, end of this year will be completed. Tapi bila tengok rumah, macam dah nak siap je. Pintu dgn pagar je tak pasang lagi, tiles sampai ke toilet semua dah siap. I felt giddy and excited at the same time. Lama dah tunggu weh. 5 years! Hopefully, it will be completed in time.

The last 3 pictures kat bottom are view from my house gate

Parents are excited too..on our way back, I kept thinking and said to Mama "Betullah Mama selalu cakap sebelum ni. Ada hikmah di sebalik ujian Tuhan". Mama asked "Kenapa?". "Yelah, kalau betul rumah siap dulu 2005, maybe adik sengkek sket la nak bayar bulan2 sbb nak bayar keta Zul lagi. Sekarang, kereta Zul pun dah habis bayar. Ngam2 je dengan rumah pun siap tahun ni, insyallah. Tak la berat sangat. Tuhan nak bagi adik ringan sket beban, tu yg Dia uji dulu, kan Ma?" Mama smiled and agreed.

Susah sebenarnya nak admit yg kadang2 kita kena bersyukur dgn apa2 pun dugaan dlm hidup. More often than not, we tend to compare with what other people have, not with what other people don't have. True? Walaupun rumah kecik, sekangkang kera je but it's mine you know? I've actually secretly kept some home decoration, macam small cute IKEA vases, candles, alas meja, heck even fridge magnets - presents from friends in one corner of my cupboard in my room since few years with the hope that my own house will be completed and I could use the things. Eventhough sometimes I wonder when it will be completed, but when I look at the things I kept, I smiled and continue to dream about the house. I think sometimes I overexposed my feelings here kan? I know my cousins, my sister will be reading this..arghh, salah ke nak berangan? Kitchenware macam pinggan mangkuk and utensils and whole lot of others - gifts for my wedding 5 years ago pun are kept in one corner in my room, kena tunggu ada rumah baru bleh guna.

Gambo Akiff latest - taken 2 days ago. Oh by the way, his name is spelt as Akiff, not Aqiff

I'm praying for more good things to happen this year..Hopes and dreams are two things that kept me going.. And I never stop hoping and dreaming..:D