Tuesday, May 10, 2011

In loving memory of my MakTeh

It was 4th May morning, on a Wednesday. Ayah called me near 10am. 'Ayah ada berita kurang baik nak bagitau, MakTeh dah meninggal pagi tadi'. I was feeling numb and asked 'MakTeh?' hoping that it was some other MakTeh in Perlis yg aku tak kenal. Ayah replied 'MakTeh la, PakTeh'. Time tu jugak berjuraian air mata aku kat office. Quickly called my sis to inform her, told my boss that I need to take EL and I drove all the way from TPM to KJ.

Was also crying while I drove. Dgn jem tak hengat kat LDP tu sbb ada accident. Ayah had to go to the mosque to pick up my mom as her phone was on silent mode sbb Mama tengah ngaji dgn kawan2. My MakTeh is my Mama's sister in law. She was only 49. Memang dari sebelum kahwin, dia ada jantung berlubang. We knew she's weak and kuar masuk hospital almost every month, but everytime jumpa dia, she always looked healthy and cheerful. So, the news was shocking to me.

Zul was on morning shift. He also took EL. Both of us waited for my sis dekat rumah before heading to Damansara. My parents had left with my cousin. Ramai sgt orang bila kitaorg sampai tu, mostly her relatives and office colleagues. The moment I saw my PakTeh, I broke down. They only have one daughter, Afiqah who is studying medic in Alexandria. I've blogged about her before. She was preparing for her exams when she heard the news from my PakTeh and PakTeh leave it to her to decide whether she wants to come back immediately or later. Knowing that she wouldn't make it for her mother's funeral, she calmly told my PakTeh to proceed with the funeral and not wait for her. Such a strong lady, my cousin tu. Cousin2 dia yg dok nangis sakan kat sini.

Cousin Afiqah with my MakTeh, masa we all hantar dia ke airport to leave for Alexandria


Cousin Afiqah with my MakTeh, Raya last year rasanya, masa Fiqah balik bercuti

When we were told that the funeral will only be after Asar, Zul and I decided to send my cousin back to KJ to pick up his car as he needs to get back to the office and pick up my MakLang from the airport. Refreshen myself, solat Zohor and head back to Damansara, to the mosque where diaorg mandikan jenazah. Lepas solat Asar, solat jenazah and we all head to kawasan perkuburan Bukit Kiara. Another heart-wrenching moment :(. Urusan selesai around 6.15pm and memasing balik ke rumah to freshen up sebab tahlil will be done after Maghrib.

At first, ingat nak balik ke BJ tapi mengenangkan LDP yg confirm jammed tu, aku balik ke KJ and terpaksalah pinjam jubah dan tudung Mama. Tahlil finishes around 10pm and by the time aku sampai BJ dah dekat kul 11pm. Agak sakit kepala (kalau nangis banyak, mmg aku migraine) tapi besok tu still pegi office macam biasa.

I could not imagine how my PakTeh felt at that moment. I hope and pray my PakTeh will be strong. Same wishes to my cousin, Afiqah. Be strong my dear, moga Fiqah success in your studies and berjaya jadi doktor macam yang Mama nak. It's sad to think that my MakTeh won't be there to see my cousin graduates, or witness her wedding..but we need to move on kan?
My mama with my MakTeh, this was in February, their last outing together

Such a kind soul, you will always be missed, MakTeh. May you rest in peace. Alfatihah.

8 comments:

mamacrocs said...
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mamacrocs said...

Moga ditempatkan dikalangan para salihin my heart goes out to Afiqah, moga ditabahkan hati dikuatkan iman insyallah.

Konot said...

alfatihah to arwah. moga ditempatkan dikalangan org yg beriman. my prayers to your family, especially to your pakteh and afiqah. semoga Allah tabahkan hati.

nadya.s said...

salam takziah buat pakteh, afiqah dan keluarga. semoga roh makteh dicucuri rahmah.. :( tumpang sedih, amy.

Linda said...

AlFatihah..amazed by how strong the only daughter was..

Aku pulak all teary baca blog ko ni Amy. Tetambah bila banyak pulak kes kematian, cepat sangat rasa sayu..

Hang in there & be strong okeh!

Anonymous said...

thinking of you kak Mi, and how fragile you are, I shed some tears. Al-fatihah.

_Melanie_

Silent Scribbler said...

kak amy... i am so sorry to hear about your mak teh. takziah to you and your family.

Amy said...

Thank you from the bottom of my heart, friends. Cukup seminggu arwah kembali ke rahmatullah, masih teringat2 kat arwah. Went and visit her mother and my PakTeh last night, masih bersedih tapi dah nampak ceria sket. Hidup harus diteruskan. Japgi aku update post baru.